Really tired

Howdy from the land of thundershowers and smelling diapers!

We took Little Man, Kolt on a road trip this weekend and had a swell time. He got to visit his Uncle Mac and see the Fort Worth Stockyard District.The pic included is Little Man and my squeeze Janet.

I have been really tired the last month. Tired of walking, tired of joints hurting, tired of my damn neck having a pinched nerve. I guess my age is really catching up to me because it takes for ever to get over being sore or pulling a muscle.

I have also gotten really tired and burned out over my Fat Loss Journey. I think a lot of this attitude I have comes from being sore and uncomfortable and also the heat of August. I do look forward to some cooler weather.But part of my poor attitude comes from the disconnect between how long this journey takes and how long I want this journey to take.

I know and fully realize it took me 54 years to get to 305 pounds----well maybe not that long, because I had been right around 305 for a couple of years. And I accept the fact that it will take me years to completely change my life style and my habits.But knowing these facts , sometimes does not satisfy my impatient desire to get it all over and become the rock hard ,chiseled , Greek sculptured example of manliness that I dream about----LOL----but that was a good big Crock of Cold Cat Crap!

Bottom line is I get tired of the uphill walk sometimes. Old Habits are hard to break I guess.And I can't help but tell myself-----I wish I was over there already!
But like Momma always said--wish in one hand and spit in the other, then see which one gets filled first.

I am tired, I have been tired before, I will be tired again.Sometimes,in spite of all the good intentions and knowing all the facts ,figures and formulas the eggs just ain't worth the wear and tear on the chickens ass.

In times like that, I just got to slow down and regroup and quit wishing.

One day soon a cool north wind will blow and my attitude will change.

Pearl of Wisdom from the Mind of WEL
If wishes were horses,beggars would ride.

Aggravation makes me hungry

Howdy from the land of pissed off cowboys and high carb cravings!

Yep, when I get aggravated I get the burning desire to eat something with lots of carbs and sugar. You know , the old standby stuff, doughnuts, ice cream, bread of any kind, taters----yea taters!!All the stuff that for 56 years made me feel good ---WHY?? Because I DESERVE IT.

Seems like I have been aggravated for a week. Don't know why all these people can't be reasonable and do it MY way. Janet says if all of us would just do what she says the world would be a better place, I guess I have that same opinion,only yall ought to listen to ME.

It is amazing how much aggravation fuels my desire and addiction to the stuff ,that for decades gave me comfort.But a slow change is taking place. Monday I was as mad around 6:30 in the evening as I have been in a long time.I mean I was POd, growling like a dull chainsaw. If I'd had some Crown in the house, I could have made a whiskey float w/Bluebell ice cream. Instead I told Janet I was going for a walk. I went to the barn got my pack, stuck a rifle in it and some sand bags for weight. I walked down the pasture , across the creek, thru the brush and checked the water gap.
I found some maintenance work I need to do before the cows go into that pasture, also found some sweat. Best thing I found was some sanity.I got relaxed while I was walking. By the time I got back to the house I was happy as a tornado in a trailer park.--------Ain't life strange?

Now I am not the sharpest knife in the drawer sometimes, but I do know there are enzymes and chemicals the brain and organs put off when I get stressed or aggravated and also when I eat things. All this leads to good feelings and bad feelings in our body. How I react to these highs/lows are key to continuing down my path.By making better choice 51+% of the time I will continue to make changes for the better.

If ya see me, for goodness sake help me out----do it my way so my choices will be easier for me!

Pearl of Wisdom from the Mind of WEL
Compromise can be a good thing,especially when someone else does it.

Never Weaken

Howdy from the land flat tractor tires and pulled neck muscles!

Only those that try will get anything done.For those that make no effort, nothing will be gained.

I may have told you this before but I read a book about Gunnery Sargent Carlos Hathcock, who was a sniper in the Marine Corp. In this book was a quote that hangs in my office---------I like it

" It is not the critic that counts. Not the one who points out how the strong man stumbled or how the doer of deeds might have done them better.The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred with sweat and dust and blood. Who strives valiantly;who errs and comes up short again and again,who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions and spends himself in a worthy cause:who if he wins knows the triumph of high achievement and who, if he fails at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat."

Sometimes I forget just how strong that message is. Sometimes I fail to realize just how powerful the human will can be.

Me,I've set a goal, and come hell or high water I'm gonna get there.

Pearl of Wisdom form the Mind of WEL
The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse get the cheese.

Back space

Howdy from the land of Full Pak Trac and heavy boots!

Yesterday was a better day on the track than last week.My feet did not feel as heavy and my knees were at least tolerable.I opted for 2 laps just to see if last week was just a mean week or if I really needed to back off a little.

I will make sure this week that I eat a little something an hour before I walk so I have enough fuel in my tank. Today I had a little peanut butter and trisquits.

I have noticed over the past two years some of my habits are changing , without me really being aware of it.I don't drive around in the parking lot at the store looking for a close to the front parking space. There are plenty of spaces near the street. Also, I usually get to work early and the parking lot is half empty. Now I just cruise on in and park in the back space. I get to burn a few more calories on the way inside AND I get to stretch my legs a little while getting into the building.

I believe it is about time to walk across the street and see what a wonderful day looks like on the track.

Turns out the day was overcast and sprinkling. I wonder if ya burn more calories if the rain hits ya while you walk?

Pearl of Wisdom from the Mind of WEL
Whistle while you walk, it makes you feel good.

I gotta adjust

Howdy from the land of no breeze and plenty of sunshine!

To sum it up---it is hot!

I was on mile 2 of 3 on the Full Pak Trac today and I got a little light headed. That ain't good because I need my head to stay on straight so I don't fall down.

So, I am gonna make an adjustment to my Dog Days of Summer Mixup Cycle. Instead of pushing 3 laps at lunch I am gonna adjust back to 2 laps for the rest of the month.I think it would be better than falling down.

This trip has been one goal, one trick,one method and one adjustment after another so this is just par for the course.

I will ponder on a way to make up for the adjustment.

Pearl of Wisdom from the Mind of WEL
Being #2 ain't bad, #1 is always having to look back over his shoulder.

See the light

Howdy from the land of red wasps and mockingbirds!

Think,reason,learn,stand in the light of truth.Find truth in everything you do----to see the light, you must come in out of the dark.

My fat loss journey started where most folk's journey starts. I got to do something, well here goes, this is day ONE, etc,etc,etc.

The fact is , I would not have gotten as far as I have without learning,pondering,reading,understanding and finding some of the true facts that are in the shadows.

The truth is:
I am what I eat
I am how much I eat
It does count if I move more
The calorie is KING
Planning,Positive thinking,Patience,Perseverance are must have tools
Steady wins the race
If I think I can't , I can't
If I think I can, I can
I don't have to compete with anyone but me
I can not blame anyone but me
This trip takes a hell of an effort
The effort is worth it

If you feel you are in need of improving your health, you are probably right. If you think you can't do it , YOU ARE WRONG. If I can do this anyone can, I just had to see the light.

Do some research, read some blogs,books and articles.Find a method that is simple and works for you, we are worth it. Find the truth, see the light, get er done damn it!!

Pearl of Wisdom form the Mind of WEL
Life can be like a stool sample, it can go from diarrhea to constipation in one movement.

Mentally challenged

Howdy from the land of live oak acorns and road runners!

SLOWLY, ever so SLOWLY. I am coming to grip with the mentally challenging part of my fat loss journey. My friend and constant supporter of my journey , Muata, said this trip is as much mental as physical. He is mighty right!

I have wished,wanted and desired to lose weight several times in my life---really all of my life.I have on occasion pulled off some significant weight loss.One time I joined Nutrisystem---lost 50 pounds, and gained it back+. Twice I have hit the Atkins System hard--lost 44 and 46 pounds and gained them back +.

I have had to look back and ask myself, how did these attempts work out and WHY?

Both "systems" work because I consume less calories than I burn----duh.Both "systems" fail because mentally I am not approaching where I am and where I want to be the right way.

I am where I am because I eat too damn much, period.Unless I can change the desire to eat by excuse and not by nutrition , I can not hope to make a permanent change.

SLOWLY I will get ahead in the mental part of this trip.

Pearl of Wisdom form the Mind of WEL
To win, ya got to get your head screwed on straight.